Autumn Changes

It's been a crazy weekend with very small pauses between events including human interaction; I can't complain though, it's my own way of celebrating the final, definite end of "my rebellious stage." Some might expect infinite sadness, but really, I'm feeling relieved and refreshed (with some blue undertones). Two lives part ways, thus opening the chasm and allowing other things to replace one another. It's strange how different I feel; a little numb from confusion, but I know everything will be okay, probably even better eventually. How do girls go through the "I hate boys" stage? I don't get it, I don't think that for one moment in my life I've actually hated boys. A little bitter, definitely. But it was the right time...perhaps a little too late in most people's opinions. But I can't say I'll look back in regret, and I can honestly say that I've learned something from all that happened. What happens next? Ah, another mystery yet to be solved. Until that happens, I'll be looking forward to Thanksgiving, sorting my life out again, and reprioritizing.

If you see me dazed and unaware of my own surroundings, please snap me back into reality before my thoughts run too deeply into the past. The past, after all, is a forest into which the mind can wander and lose its way. Stumbling to pick myself back up, I look around and find a sea of faces who support and care for me and focus less on the shadows behind me.

Changed and Renewed,
Anna

Five Days and Counting...

Right around this time every year I'm ready for Christmastime to come; I started listening to Christmas music on Monday. I can't say that it exactly feels remotely like winter yet (even with the cool front), but it's exciting to think that this semester will be over in less than a month! One more chemistry lab -unfortunately, for one or two reasons- and about four more times for every other class and we're done. I can't say this semester has treated me unkindly, but it has been a bit overbearing this past week or so. I've had to write three essays this week, along with one test, two quizzes, a journal, and finishing a portfolio. Half of these things were either done out of haste or not at all, which is saying a lot about how much I look forward to Thanksgiving break. Perserverance and patience never were my favorite words, but they must be learned. It's ironic that patience must be learned over time; who wants to wait to become a patient person?
I haven't been home since August, but the remaining five days seem almost as long as the four months I've waited to go home. One thing I am absolutely excited about: part of the family coming down to pick me up!

How is God shining in your life?