Life Goes Easy on Me...Most of the Time

Thirteen days? Yes, that's how long I have to decide whether I want to date a guy who lives in Austin...and it's his away message whenever it's not "Do you believe in miracles? I do." Is there something inherently wrong with enjoying attention from a member of the opposite sex? I'd argue that there isn't, but there is a point at which the longing for attention becomes absurdly annoying. Freshly detached from a dating situation, one questions many things in life. Then there are the things one doesn't question, like why that guy on the bus asked for your number. No, I don't want to get drunk with you - ever. What is it with males and their compulsive decisions to become attached to a girl, really enjoy being in the relationship for a while, then let go of her with no good explanation? Not that I'm researching this, but I've recently talked to a few girls about failed relationships and this seems to be the pattern. Time, energy, emotions have all been spent on one person for this amount of time, then suddenly (usually expectedly) it's over. I love boys, don't get me wrong here, but I suppose I'm a little bitter and spiteful now that this has happened to me. Spiteful in that people feel bad thinking I miss him or feel sad now that we're not dating, but we're still hanging out so there's no way I'd miss him. Maybe a few aspects of the relationship we had previously, but I simply cannot miss him. His voice, his being, his jokes, his support, none of these have vanished into thin air like (apparently) happens after most ended relationships. In fact, I'm pretty sure most people don't believe we broke up, which is probably the illusion he's hoping to create because he made the stupid mistake of breaking up with me. Or, that's what he's thinking. And I know that's what he's thinking simply because of the way he's acting now. Let's face it, no one can be the good ex-boyfriend without exuding some sort of creepy "I still like you" aura. I honestly don't like being single as much as I liked having someone to depend upon, to care for and who cared for me, but it is something I'd done for over 19 years previously. Independence, freedom, individuality...woohoo. The perks of singleness, live it up. And in the meanwhile, fight the urge to be bitter.
Yet another single Cru girl,
Anna